achallenge
im asking God why he would put me in such anguish and state of “jafljkasdf”. i think i know why… at least im slowly getting it… i asked for it -.- no, i mean i prayed for it 0.0 i want to go somewhere higher and get to a place and walk out dreams and see people get pulled from darkness yet i can’t seem to cope with a lot of lifes’ curve balls– or should I say God’s? i suppose i should be comforted in knowing that this is all a big test and that this will produce character and perseverance and hope and all that– and i guess that’s what will get me through the darkness i know i have to face. something i have to fight and a destiny that is to be and will only come by the pain of working hard, suffering long and learning to truly, simply, love.
i’m tired and i want release — but i will not let go. or He wont let go of me. one or the other ;) so here i sit, wrecked, broken, helpless. asking, believing (mostly:-p) and trusting that as i am paralyzed to do anything to save myself i find wholeness and my all in Him.
