what hAvE I but YoU
WhatHaveIButYou[pdf]What have I but You? What is my strength but You? I have to let it all go. Once more. One more time. Hah. Wow. Yes. God. You. Make my heart glad once more. Make my heart full once more. Take the reins once more. Forgive me for holding on so tight. I want freedom in spirit. I want the Spirit to be free in me. Release. Release.Let me see the beauty again. Let me see Your beauty once more. Show me that fullness. Allow me to know beauty—true unadulterated beauty. Captivate my soul.Guide me Jesus. Make me whole. Where I’m so weak to hold my head straight be my arrow. Pin me. Be serious with me. Make me to know the reality of Your heart. No fake, God.Blow on my garden. Blow ever so gently, one more time. Blow. Blow. Breathe in life to my dry bones. Allow me to feel life in my cold empty soul.My fears? I’m afraid of failing, and losing the ones I love most. I’m afraid of the being hurt by me. But then, fear never got me very far. I want to walk in One confidence. One thing I am confident in, that will I seek.Let my works be a reflection of Your hand God. In the midst of pain, confusion, joy; make me to know Your creativity. The inspiration You spill over—that same cool breeze You blow over me.Walk me though this time. Blow in the new seasons. I know You have the time. Create in me a steadfast waiting. To wait and not grow tired or distracted. Continue to pour out your water. Pour me out and fill me up. Smash the idols and build me piece by piece. No longer will I walk downcast because of the oppression of the enemy. Show me truth and give me faith. Give me a hard and solid ground of faith to walk upon. I know I am being changed even when I don’t feel it or believe. Help me to believe. Show me the light every day. Remove the veil that clouds my understanding. Burn in my heart. Allow my mind to be transformed by your presence. No longer. No longer tainted by this world.Till me, till me till I am ready. Break the worrying. Faith like never before. Bring in the hearts. Give me a heart after Your heart. So that I may feel Your pain and feel your joy. Make me into the man I need to be.Set me as a pillar. Strong not in my strength but mighty in You. Is that okay? Can I ask for that? Can I be righteous and mighty in the Lord? Why does the church tell me no? Why I am I told to “watch myself”. I can’t do it their way. I have to have You. I have to have the truth that You promised me.
