Sometimes I get overwhelmed by my own inability to be wholehearted for God. Sometimes He lets me see how great the distance is between my heart and His and I ask, “How then will I ever be mature? My heart is so far from you!”
Sometimes I wonder if I lived in more dire circumstances, if that would cause me to live more like Christ (if I didn’t have the distraction of being American). But I can’t go there for long, it’s pointless, I know He desired me to live during this time right where I am.
He just whispers, “I want this to be impossible for you Michael, because I want to make it possible by My Life in you.” So I’m left with Him, I don’t despise where I am or where the Bride is, I can on only go deeper.
I’m challenged to pray for the needy, to take care of the poor, to contend for my city and for my nation, etc. I don’t want to do it apart from Him.
If you’re interested, here are a few verses that struck my heart. Matt 19:28 | Rev 19:7 and many more…
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The St. Lorel crew is heading up to Virginia on July 2nd to lead worship at the “Blaze Manifesto“. Before driving to VA we’ll be stopping for a day in Raleigh, NC for a little worship seminar with Sean Feucht – (BURN 24-7).
I’m looking forward to worshiping with the Blaze team. We had a conference call with them a week or so ago that was real. It was good to hear the heart of the “event” and encouraging to know that they have been carrying a real heart of intercession for the nation. More soon!
I had a morning a week or so ago that started like this:
Pride is a menace that hides in the deepest corners of my heart. Seeking a way out, poisoning my soul. It rarely raises it’s head but leaks unnoticeably into my blood stream conflicting my heart with my mind. The two are at odds and I am left with only tears and humility to awaken me from the trip of this blinding foe.
Actually, it turned into a lot of laughter and freedom. Everything made sense yet everything was undone.
The journey in Wilmington continues. My family and I continue to get stretched and positioned. My heart is alive for city and the Lord’s heart for the Bride.
Apart from meeting as a family and living “life”. I’ve been working on a few things,
- Working on getting a job in the local area. I applied for a position at a little market near my house– a community owned Co-Op. We’ll see.
- Establishing an online website to keep up with the Carrs and what we’re calling “together 2:22″ (Our ministry name for non-profit status) This site will give an idea of who we are and what we’ve been called to. It will also collect our personal fingerprints from our blogs, tweets, and facebook photos, etc….
- Praying and dialoguing with Timothy & Sue over the heart of what we’re calling the “Wilmington Prayer Furnace”. Establishing a way to communicate the vision and spread the word to local pastors and worship-leaders.
- Planning out a vegetable garden. Right now we’re starting small at 8′x10′ in our backyard to feed the many mouths MORE vegetables! I look forward to watching this grow…
